How are you?
It has been quite a couple of weeks for all of us as we face momentous changes; in our work circumstances, in our personal lives, in the very ways that we live. We don’t yet know the full consequences as we are still in the early days of this new way of being. It has been fascinating to watch and to live through this period of time.
I have found myself going through a whole array of emotions from grieving and lamenting day-to-day loss of contact with family, friends and Christian community, the anger and disappointment at all of the wasted hard work of a son whose A levels have been stopped in the tracks, to the uncertainty and anxiety around a business and if we will be able to make ends meet for an undetermined amount of time. I am sure there are many more, but those have bene mine.
One of the places I have been listening and reflecting is on my allotment whilst digging it over for a new season. For future fruitfulness. Don’t worry I have kept an appropriate social distance and it has been my allowed daily exercise. My mind has turned to the words from John’s Gospel;
I am the true grapevine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more. 3 You have already been pruned and purified by the message I have given you. 4 Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. (John 15; 1-4, NLT)
Quite naturally we ask, “Where is God in all of this?” At the moment I have to confess I have not found an answer to the question so far. What I have experienced is a sense of needing to wait, to pray, to watch and listen to remain….and for now that has had to be enough. For someone naturally who is an activist that is tough, but I have to trust that is enough…..I have been reminded that the journey of birthing a fresh expression of church does not start with setting something up, it starts with prayer, resting in God and listening….Profound, ……challenging, but….enough.
Keep safe and remain in the vine for fruitfulness.